MoodyJesse

Goodbye Depression! Or at least the worst of it.  I am no longer laid out in bed sobbing about nothingness.  The overwhelming sense of "no purpose" has subsided.  I'm not entirely sure if it's "the cycle" or the meds kicking in.  Mary Jo said I may metabolize medication quickly which is why I feel effects after missing just one day.  I take 40 mg of Latuda between around 8:30-10:30 (dependng on when I go to bed).   The mood swings are still present.  I can flip from singing to angry in a second.  Jon annoys me more than anything but still, pretty much everything annoys me.  I try to be more in tune with my emotions to understand the mood disorder and listen to what pulls me in another direction out of the frustration that haunts me.  I get quick bursts of energy but nothing that lasts long enough to truly get anything done.  I made a fabulous dinner last night, :)

Latuda What is LATUDA? An Effective Treatment Option for Bipolar Depression Latuda ®  (lurasidone HCl) is a once-a-day prescription medication. It is indicated to treat adult patients with depressive episodes in bipolar I disorder ( bipolar depression ) when used alone or with lithium or valproate. In clinical studies, LATUDA was proven effective for many people struggling with bipolar depression. LATUDA is the first medication approved for bipolar depression that can be taken either: on its own (monotherapy), or with a mood-stabilizing medication (adjunctive therapy), either lithium or valproate. LATUDA is part of a class of medications called atypical antipsychotics. How Does LATUDA Work? Although it’s not known exactly how Latuda ®  (lurasidone HCl) works, here’s some helpful information about the science behind it: LATUDA is part of a class of medicines called atypical antipsychotics (LATUDA is not an antidepressant) Atypical antipsychotics are thought to

Mood Disorder A psychological disorder characterized by the elevation or lowering of a person's mood, such as depression or bipolar disorder .                     If you have a mood disorder, your general emotional state or mood is distorted or                  inconsistent with your circumstances. Some examples of mood disorders include:                                    Cyclothymic disorder            Bipolar disorder                                                           Seasonal affective disorder (SAD)                           Premenstrual dysphoric disorder                                                                         Persistent depressive disorder (dysthymia) Disruptive mood dysregulation disorder                                           Depression related to medical illness Jon and I first thought it was PMDD.  Hell, it still might be since it's on the list of mood disorders.  I started therapy at Lindner Center for Hope around October 2016.

Catching Up! The yard looks great and landscaping is thriving.  We even got most of the siding done on the side of the house this past weekend!  We had a great night with friends Friday (darts and karaoke) and Mojo came over for most of the day Sunday.  I forgot how nice it was to call her up and... she's there!  Even helped us with the siding.  What a gal!  :)  All I need to do is finish cleaning the house and get some groceries.  Starting the morning with coffee, blogging my thoughts and diving into the "self help" books Mom sent me.  Jon and I dove into "The Five Love Languages of Children."  Love it!  I need to work extra hard at filling my stepdaughter's love tank.  We think her love languages are words of affirmation and quality time.  What can I specifically do to fill her love tank? Compliment!  Your hair looks pretty today, Your good at..., thank you for..., I love you's,  Spend time together!  At least one game a day, shopping trips toge

I opened my eyes to my husband next to me who loves me enough to stick around.  Wow, there must be something special about me.  I roll over and start to handle his man.  He says, "I'm guessing you want lovn' since it's the morning."  We hear a tiny knock at the door (come on, where did you think this was going?...#realitywithkids).  "Mommy, all the fish are dead!" About two years ago, I took the plunge into a 175 gallon South African Cichlid tank.  Back then, I was still schlepping wine and we would blow money like we were wiping our asses with dollar bills.  Makes me sick to my stomach thinking about it....as I digress.  I raised these guys from the time they were itty bitty.  They are strikingly beautiful (maybe I have mom eyes) and give me a sense of calm and peace as I watch them bully each other all over the aquarium.  Magui, Bubba, Divine, etc, yep they have names.  Jon was nervous about the tank for he didn't know if it was just a phase or

Support This one is tricky.  Everyone needs support.  The reality is many people can't handle nor give the support that one needs when they feel they've hit the bottom.  For that, we feel alone, rejected, and betrayed which can spiral out of control into a deeper depression.   My husband reached out for a dear friend to take my step-daughter for the weekend so I can get well.  My daughter begged me this morning to join the girls and she missed her sister.  I reached out for their mother and asked if she would take her for a few hours this morning while my husband and her husband went to a vintage car show.  She responded saying she's too busy for another child and called her husband.  Jon came back immediately and could tell something was wrong.  "She is afraid to have any contact with you for she has PTSD and doesn't want to be around someone that may trigger negative emotions."  She was a victim herself of abuse as a child and sides with victims, whic